I have a few.
Mostly I regret having to write this.Last Sunday Ian and I celebrated our first anniversary as a married couple in Atlantic City. It was really fun. We saw a show, took in the Ripley's Museum, won some money at Roulette then lost some of it at the slot machines and won a little more at Blackjack. There was good food, good wine and great sex.
Then it was back home.
On the drive home, Ian asked me if I "still did that porn blog." I told him yes and asked why. He was quiet for a good five minutes when he asked me why I do it and to be honest, I really couldn't give him a good answer. I know why I started the blog way back when, but to be honest, I don't know why I keep it up.
I asked him if it bothered him that I still do the blog. After another short silence he said it did but he didn't want to tell me to stop, that if I wanted to keep doing it, I could, but he just didn't see the reason for it. It isn't like it was political or an on-line diary; it's just mostly pictures of naked guys, not that there's anything wrong with that, he was quick to add.
And that got me thinking --
Why do I have this blog?
If it's just for the pictures of naked guys, there are thousands of those, one more or less isn't going to change anything.
It isn't about politics; I'm not really all that politically aware. I mean I watch the news, but I'm not a hard-core political advocate.
And while I have posted quite a lot about my life, this blog isn't really a diary.
I have no idea why I'm doing this blog anymore.
So I've decided to stop blogging here for the time being. I'll be back when and if I figure out what I want this blog to be. I'm not sure how long that will take.
I appreciate everyone whose followed me, both Followers and Lurkers alike.
Thank you and good-night.
4 comments:
I have to admit, I'm sorry to read this. I always enjoyed stopping by here to see what's up. I came upon this blog as a spin off from one of the many other ones I follow. Somehow, you posted something that clicked with me, and I thought to myself "I like this guy and where he's coming from. I get it." So I followed. I also liked the fact you're from NY. I'm from NJ, so I can relate fairly well to your lifestyle.
Having said that, I enjoy all the blogs I follow, and often thought I should start one myself. But why bother? Mine would be just a carbon copy of what's out there already, so I always doubted it's future.
The thing that I did enjoy is you gave us an insight to your day to day life experience. After all, isn't that what blogging should really be about? Because we're all gay and somewhat "socially obtuse" to the rest of the straight world, it's always nice to hear what others like us are going through. It's a kind of social circle; simple as that. We all know how important and fun that is; we all need a social outlet. This was one of them.
It takes some nerve to publicly open yourself this way, and I commend that, along with anyone else who writes a blog. There's no need for anyone such as a spouse or partner to feel neglected if someone does this, and I hope that's not the case for you. On the other hand, I can understand how much of a commitment and burden it might be, always feeling obliged to post something. It's how bloggers burn out. So my hope is, you won't say "good bye", but instead "…see you later". Perhaps once a month or every other post something and stay active. Don't just fade away, pop in from time to time.
Since you were in Atlantic City recently, don't forget to stop in Asbury Park one day! Club Paradise is the nicest, biggest place to go; it has a pool in the summer, 3 bars, and 2 dance floors. Maybe you've been there? There's also George's and The Cameo Bar, which are just small gay neighborhood bars. [They're all on Facebook]
I wish you all the best! Be happy!
Thank you for the kind words Bob. I haven't decided to stop blogging, I just haven't decided what this blog should be about. I don't want this to be just another porn blog, but I have so few followers, it seems that no one really cares if I post of not. Maybe I'm just feeling a little lost right now.
Things are going great at home; Ian and I love each other very much and T.J. is doing well in school, so there are no problems there.
So, I just need to decide what I want to do with this blog, if I want to do anything more with it at all. Whatever I decide, there will be a post letting everyone who has followed me know what I decided. Just give me a couple of weeks to figure it all out.
Thanks.
Love, Garth
Just getting back to this, YES! I can understand completely! It hurts to be ignored or invisible, and I think that's why I never pursued blogging myself. The other thing is people often misunderstand what's written, and it winds up to be this colossal bitch fest. [People can be such morons; you know that.] I think the only way to get more followers is to become more active in comments on other blogs you follow yourself. Once you say something interesting, people stop to see your profile and then visit your blog. If they like what they see, they follow, and so it goes. Whatever happens, I'll stop by and see if there anything new from time to time. I wish you all the best!
I am single, and yet I too wonder at times why I keep blogging! I do enjoy it, and enjoy sharing the images I find. I guess that's it in a nutshell!
Enjoy your break...you'll figure it out!
XO FFB
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